17/9/03 - 4/10/03
*A Polite Notice*
I wrote the book on failed relationships
Losing and always loosening my grip
Fearing that if I squeeze too tight
I'll lose her in the everlasting night
This is what becomes of the tender hearted
They're left alone since their loves departed
Yet they started so optimistically
So why did it fail so miserably
We're here to say that we've had enough today
We're here to fight for the chance of daylight
So don't stop us now just let us in
No don't stop us now we're about to win
I wrote the words to a song or two
They saddened some and inspired a few
But no matter what reaction they get
This is my saddest song yet
Because its written for everyone who's lost
Or failed to try since our paths never crossed
So as you sit and contemplate these words
Remember not to set such high standards
We're here to say that we've had enough today
We're here to fight for the chance of daylight
So don't stop us now just let us in
No don't stop us now we're about to win
*Lessons Part 2*
You painted a picture of love neverending
And hung it on your wall
Now that love has escaped you and life overwhelms you
Did that picture fall?
How are you feeling
Now your heart is broken
Are you left feeling
There were words left unspoken
And you could have kept him
If you had just said them
Those kind words of wisdom
I love you all over again
Now you are left with a picture of hate
And only yourself to blame
You tear up the letters and cry through the night
Does he feel the same?
How very hurt is he
Since you have discarded
Him like an accessory
Its only just started
But yes he still wants you
So what do you say
And what will you do
Will you take him back today?
You left yourself open for pain
You let him go once again
He's not coming back this time
And all because you drew that line
Between you and him that pulled you apart
And now you're both left with broken hearts
*Drastic Measures*
I'm writing you a letter, today
Hoping you'll feel better, today
Maybe its just a phase
But that's not the case
Tonight is so silent
But at least its not violent
So when did you stop feeling
Anything at all?
And when will I start healing
After this fall?
I'm lying on my own, today
With a feeling I have grown, today
Maybe this is a lesson
My heart has gone from full to crescent
And tears fall freely
At the love that was nothing really
So when did you stop feeling
Anything at all?
And when will I start healing
After this fall?
Jumping from the bridge, today
Landing in the ditch, today
They call you up to say
They found my body today
So what do you think of me
That I'm pathetic probably
So when did you stop feeling
Anything at all?
And when will I start healing
After this fall?
*Stop, stall, flop, fall*
Stopping
What is it I want?
Stalling
What is it I need?
Flopping
Don't know what I want
Falling
Don't know what I need
I'm stopping, stalling, flopping, falling
Losing, failing, brusing, flailing
Crying, trying, lying, dying,
All just since I tripped up
All because I slipped up
Stopping
Why did I ever try?
Stalling
Why did I ever care?
Flopping
Don't know why I tried
Falling
Don't know why I cared
I'm stopping, stalling, flopping, falling
Losing, failing, brusing, flailing
Crying, trying, lying, dying,
All just since I tripped up
All because I slipped up
*Cliche Anger Song*
So fragile, I think she might just snap
So fragile, I think she's gonna be trapped
So nervous, I think she needs help now
So nervous, I think she needs it somehow
But she let it all build up
And she's gonna lose it all
I'm not the one who slipped up
She's the one that's gonna fall
All these problems stem from her
All these problems build up anger
Why did she let this pass?
Why did she leave it till last?
So angry, she thinks I'm going mad
So angry, she thinks I'm really sad
So touchy, she thinks its all over
So touchy, she thinks there's no other
Way to get out of this
All the chances were missed
Now we're really going under
Distant clouds and near thunder
All these problems stem from her
All these problems build up anger
Why did she let this pass?
Why did she leave it till last?
All these decisions she was wrong
All these decisions fake all along
Why did I not see this coming?
Why did I not start running?
*My Life Is Happening*
There's something around in the air tonight
There's nothing that I can do to make it right
Where's your mind been these last few days
I wonder when I watch the last sun ray
And as you walk down the rain-soaked street
All my previous feelings are so obsolete
And where did you go
When I loved you so?
I can't help but feel
That this was real
The skies are darkening
And I wonder why
The skies are blackening
And I breathe a sigh
My life is happening
But passing me by
My life is flattening
My soul will die
There's something to be found in the fire now
There's nothing but a picture for me now
Where's my feelings now I'm alone
I sit in silence and watch the phone
It never rings and I feel empty
But my pillow soaking tears are aplenty
And where did you sleep
I landed on my feet
Now I'm back down
Since you're not around
The skies are darkening
And I wonder why
The skies are blackening
And I breathe a sigh
My life is happening
But passing me by
My life is flattening
My soul will die
I wonder why and I breathe a sigh
My life is happening and it is flattening me
*Leave Us Alone*
There's more than you think out there,
There's more pain and anguish,
There's more than you can imagine out there,
There's more than you would wish,
Where's the love that was granted us,
Where's the grace we once had,
Where's the peace that befell us,
Where's the good not bad,
Ruled by rulers who are ruled themselves,
Hated by haters who are stacked on shelves,
Beaten by everyone that gets the chance,
Cheated by everyone that has a glance.
*Fall*
Where do you go when you're lost,
Who do you see when you're here,
Where do you think you will be,
When you realise this fear?
Where do you think your heart is,
Why is it missing from you,
Where do you run to now,
When your friends are few?
You will go where we all end up,
When we have nothing left at all,
You will go to the end and back again,
And then you'll only fall, fall, fall,
Do you believe that someone could be,
So heartless to see right through you,
And do you believe that someone should be,
Right there, right there beside you?
Do you restrain from crying out loud,
In your bed asleep at night,
And do you restrain from shouting out loud,
In the middle of the night?
You will go where we all end up,
When we have nothing left at all,
You will go to the end and back again,
And then you'll only fall, fall, fall,
We'll fall together,
We'll fall forever,
We'll fall together,
We'll fall forever, forever, forever.
*English 113*
This noisy room holds one broken soul
With far too many secrets left untold
His mind is lost and his heart yearns
If only he'd learnt that time does turn
And nothing ever stays the same
His death will be his claim to fame
He doesn't even know why he exists
Destroyed and ever lonely he sits
This full room holds a broken man
With nothing in the way of future plans
How can he even think of going on
When the one he loved is so long gone
He can never keep a hold on what he's got
Believes that he is an invisible dot
No-one ever sees him crying here
No-one can make everything crystal clear
We discuss seminars, we discuss lectures
We communicate with simple gestures
He takes it in but forgets it all
Every minute is like an endless haul.
